Denial by Kara’s Aunty

Such joy to be in dear Bag End

And living with my loyal Friend

His sweet Rose lives here with us too

We’ll start our lives in Shire anew

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I’m glad to see my Master well

The Shire can only help dispel

The Shadow that still tries to strike

At his dear heart and soul alike

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It helps to write in Bilbo’s Book

Of all the journey’s that we took

Of lasting friendships that we made

Although I fear the price I paid

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My Master’s not left home today

And nothing that his Sam can say

Will make him greet the morning light

I hope he’s feeling quite all right

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With quill and ink in study bright

Of Wraiths and rangers do I write

My dear Friend brings me cakes and tea

His comfort always soothing me

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I find it hard to understand

Why hobbit folk throughout the land

Don’t want to hear of Master’s deeds

Too busy with their own small needs!

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I tarry in my study still

I just can’t seem to find the will

To mix in Shire society

It seems so far removed from me

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I see my Frodo trying hard

His many trials to discard

So I don’t know why it should be

That I feel such anxiety

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I think that I have worried Sam

He seems to sense how still I am

I really ought to try much more

To get myself outside the door

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Dear Mr Frodo sat a while

In blooming garden of the Smial

It’s nice to see him out that room

It helps to trim away his gloom

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The time I spent outside was good

It really helped to lift my mood

Oh what a joy the blooms to see

My Sam is far too good to me

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I think he’s feeling better now

I’ve not seen sorrow on his brow

No weeds of pain shall blight his path

As long as I can make him laugh

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September has now gone away

I fear the next October day

Shall bring an Anniversary

That may steal all the joy from me

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I found him looking very strange

And dread consumed me at the change

When in his trance he did reveal

His wounds would never fully heal

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Oh curse this horror and despair

I wish Sam had not seen it there

Upon my face that dreadful day

I’ll fight this gloom! And here I’ll stay

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It seems he’s once more on the mend

The Ring will never comprehend

That even as it sows its seeds

His Sam is here to choke its weeds

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The curse has lifted for a while

It’s easier for me to smile

And reassure my faithful Sam

Of how much better that I am

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Oh how it makes this Gamgee glad

His Master is no longer sad

His Light burst forth when I did say

A little ‘un was on its way

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I cannot wait to hear the sound

Of Gamgee children all around

And though my dreams be dark and fey

This Gamgee babe holds them at bay

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By all the stars! It’s come to pass

The babe is here and it’s a lass

But naming’s not what I’m made for

So Frodo's called her Elanor

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Elanor-lass is a delight

Her sweet laugh sets my soul alight

But I fear that it’s not enough

This growing pain I can’t rebuff

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My lass adores Uncle Frodo

She turns his pale face all aglow

With loving smiles and twinkling eyes

As she for his attention vies

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I spoke with Rose the other day

And soon I will be on my way

But Sam I fear I’ve yet to tell

He thinks I’m off to Rivendell

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Oh blessed stars he’s feeling well

And off to visit Rivendell

I’ll follow him a little while

Before returning to the Smial

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The Book for me is now complete

I have accepted my defeat

If I stay here my soul shall fade

Despite the efforts Sam has made

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Strider the pony’s ready now

Though Frodo smiles I sense somehow

That deep within my dreading heart

This day will tear my soul apart

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I think Sam knows this is the end

I hope he can forgive his Friend

Although he toiled so very long

To heal me, I am not that strong

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Perhaps I’m just imagining

The pain and woe this day might bring

My hobbit sense at last has fled

If I’m consumed by senseless dread

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I feel the need a song to sing

And Elven voices answers bring

It’s time to let my dear Sam know

Forever to the West I go

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The Elves are here and suddenly

Their song does not sound sweet to me

It makes me want to yell and cry

It’s truth confirmed in Frodo’s eye

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So now the truth must be revealed

It can no longer be concealed

My dearest Sam forgive me please

There is no way your pain to ease

Text (c) Kara’s Aunty